Oh and the other thing from today. I found out some of my good friends (and their SOs) went rafting and camping this weekend. I feel I was probably left out because I'm not a couple. Nothing worse that a fifth wheel on a camping trip apparently. We'd all even talked about it about a month ago when we were out to dinner. But now I find out from ( Read more... )

Am I really so ugly I actually repel men?

I seem to have backwards self-esteem. Most people who seem down on themselves are actually quite attractive. I, for the most part, consider myself attractive but as I seem to physically repel people who see photos of me I guess I'm wrong, wrong, wrong.

Whatever.

I'm having terrible self-confidence problems lately. I don't feel I do or say anything right. Pretty much hate myself on a minute to minute basis. I don't know if it's stress or what. I'm so depressed all the time. Guess I'll go eat worms.

Thanksgiving was fun. Back to studying.

Yesterday I received an envelope stuffed full of pictures from my sister that she took while staying with me this summer. Gah, I look completely hideous in all of them. The person I see in the mirror everyday, while not the most beautiful person on earth, is at least ok looking. I don't walk around with horrible self-confidence and obsess about how ( Read more... )

Some days my self esteem just takes such a beating at school. I know it's petty, but when your whole life what you've been good at is school, when you're so used to being the fastest and smartest, when you were top 5% in high school without working much at all and finished a BS in Biochemistry with a 4.0... Oh it is so hard to be scoring average or ( Read more... )